Passover.

This post is really just me trying to get my thoughts out in some sort of cohesive manner. Feel free to skip it!

A couple of nights ago, my mom's ward held a Passover dinner and I decided to go. I am so glad I did!  I liked it because it was different. I've never done anything like that before and know less about the Passover than I probably should (even though I'm not Jewish), but I learned a lot and it made me question some things. :)
We went through the ritual (not the whole thing though; they told us that it can last up to 7 hours!) involved with the dinner. There were these little books that explained the terminology and the symbolism. I love symbology, I think it would be a really cool field to study! We also got to say some of the chants? (not sure if that's the right word) in Hebrew, and being the language geek I am, it made me want to get into the etymology of some of the Hebrew words. Oh how I wish I was still in Colorado at the LSA--so many Hebrew-studying people that I could learn from.

I guess the thing that struck me the most was how much I wondered about Christ's life. I really know nothing about it. Yes, I know the basics, but I want to know more. I don't even know if the Old or the New Testament would be more beneficial for this type of stuff--I've never read either of them all the way through.What was he really like? How was his personality?  Does he differ from when he was on Earth to when's he's in Heaven? and then that catapulted me into wondering about things that aren't exactly relevant to the Passover, but I have questions that need to be asked and answered. In scriptures, talks, etc., I've read that he is a patient, loving God in some respects, but then again, he's angry and I forget what other words are used. How can he be both of these things to so many people? Does he just switch emotions or viewpoints at the drop of a hat? Or is it more just like us when we are in a bad mood or something? I know what I'm saying doesn't make sense, but this whole concept doesn't make sense to me! The question is, who do I ask about this stuff?! Do people just learn it themselves and know it? Because I don't even know where to start looking to find answers to what I wanna know!

I love religion and the questions it can bring up :) It's a topic that always makes me think and I am grateful for that.
(I also know that it'd probably be better if all my 'he' words were capitalized. There's a lot of these. Imagine them all as 'He', haha)


xoxox,

ash