on my mind

Ok, so I know that this is kinda lame, but I'm gonna say it because I don't care. I've decided that at this point in my life, a boyfriend would be nice. I'm super grateful for my friends and the times we have but I would love a boyfriend right about now. I'm ready for it. I'm sick of guys telling me I'm pretty, smart, intriguing and oh yeah...intimidating. What the hell? Why must they say this? I'm wondering if I'm really that bad?? I'm not looking for sympathy, just the beginnings of a relationship. Everyone says that once you stop looking, someone will come into your life. I say bull. There's this guy that I really like that I thought might be interested but we're good friends for now. Of course, that's all I can ask for, but what if? What if we were to go somewhere? That would be pretty cool. Some things (however silly they may be) are just better as a couple. For example: 1) I am being Pebbles from the Flinstones for halloween and have a bam-bam costume too. It would be so cool if I could get him to be that. and...he has a nice bod, he could rock the real life bam bam look without a shirt underneath ;) 2) I need a buddy to go with me to Dashboard when they come in Nov. How freakin cool would that be?? 3) having someone to be there for me in general...the hopeless romantic equal of myself, who I could tell everything to and have it not be a big deal. having someone to cuddle with, go on dates, have a ton of fun with, etc. having someone that cares [geniunely cares] about what I have to say. I know, so just ask him out a few times and see where things go right ? Easier said than done, my friends. What if he doesn't want to but is too nice to say no? Questions, questions. well, I'm on student government and one of my activities is a date dance that's coming up and it's sort of imperative that I have a date, so that just be my golden ticket. Hopefully I don't chicken out. I know I can do it, I have complete confidence, but I guess what I'm afraid of the most is his reaction. hmmmmm....alright, I feel really good right now!
Peace and loves
~Ash

Can you say excited???

Three days!!!!!!!!!!

Fall break will be here and I will be oh so happy! Seriously. I am so excited to see my fam and friends. I have to work a little and go to the doctors and get shots...that's kinda yucky but I'll take it!! Fun things I'm looking forward to--all of the above mentioned, the INGRID Michaelson concert!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Uber stoked for that, she's my fave! Getting to see Kaitlyn at this joyous event, doing a little shopping ;), jumping on the tramp, fall in Kaysville, playing with the dog, hanging out with a friend I haven't seen in forever/meeting her fiance and a missionary farewell of a good friend from CEU. lalallalalalalalalala. I am so happy!!!

Just gotta get through my two busiest days of the week (mon and wed), and tie up all loose ends on tues. Also have to turn in a history project on Monday. Wednesday, I'm hoping and praying that my abnormal psych professor cancels class--he likes to get out of town and my fall break will start 1.5 hrs earlier. It's a win-win! Can't beat it. Yay!

Peace and loves,
~Ash

Concerts & my life

First of all...

Dearest Joshua Radin,

Pleeeeeaaaaaase come to concert here in good ol' UT. Seriously. I love you. I would be diggin your show this sat in France...Too bad my passport is expired :(

"The best thing I can do for you, is to go, leave you alone, cause you got growing up today." --JR Lyrics

Second of all...

Fall break is next week!! Yay! I am so excited! I need a break from Price and some people. Ingrid Michaelson is next saturday...I am SO EXCITED! You don't even know.

Last of all...

I'm grateful for my family. It's been one of those days & I haven't had one of those in a looooong time. Thanks.

Love and peace
~Ash