Lucky Thursdays.

so for over a year now, I have had lucky thursdays! I know it's silly, but good things always happen on this day of the week. Good things happen every other day of the week too, but the best things...Thursdays! woot, woot.

But here's the kicker...nothing out of the ordinary has happened to me on a thursday since around my birthday in early february! This needs to change!

anyway...
I am taking a chem class next semester! When I first started college, I was a biochemistry major, dead set on medical school and becoming a pediatric neurologist. Well sophomore year rolled around, I was enrolled in chem 1210, so it shouldn't have been very hard, but it was. I freaked out, dropped the class, and changed my major.

Since then, I have been an English major, Communications major, considered business (I have no idea why, because I have always known that I could never love or even come to love a career in business/marketing/sales) and am now a Linguistics major. I have to tell you, I absolutely LOVE ling. It's so great and I wouldn't change it for anything. So I am graduating in Dec. 2010 with my BA in Linguistics, still undecided on a minor. For now, I think I am headed to law school, but am also looking at a masters in ling too.

Well...

I've been thinking a lot about choices we make and how we get to where we do and how. Way back when, when I dumped my med school dreams down the drain, I was POSITIVE that I didn't want that and I didn't have the passion for it that I once did. I was really naive and did what was best for me. I don't regret that in the slightest though, because I really thought and pondered on making the switch. It was not a light decision to make. I want to be clear on that. Very, very hard for me!

Fast forward to December 2010, just after Christmas, my mom and I were taking down our tree and she started asking me about when I switched my major. It was very different being in person, since the prior conversations were all over the phone, as I was two hours away. She wanted to know if I really gave it all my effort. I am able to say I honestly did.

Lately, though, I've been thinking I need to give Chem a second shot. Nothing drastic like switching my major or anything, but who knows? What if my second try is better? Then I may decide to go to medical school after all (mostly kidding--I think!) Med schools only really want you to have certain science/math/blah, blah, blah classes. No one said you can't major in Ling and be a doctor too ;) More marketable, right?! Ha

ash philosophy.

Ahh...the what ifs are attacking me these days. (that's an entirely different, long story) I think it's a curse that follows planners (like me) around everywhere! I need to chill and realize that I'll graduate when I have all my stuff done, in a reasonable amount of time, even if it's not 4 years from when I graduated hs and whatever else.

I guess I am just going through a wave of feeling content and then feeling so confused, so upintheair. I hope lots of people my age feel that way right now. so I'm not the only 20something who doesn't know exactly what I want out of my life. I have ideas, but I cannot see the end result, and all of the big picture. That's a big fear I have--> going forward with options and goals, then getting to that point and still being unhappy. Is this normal??? sigh. I hate worrying about stuff like this.

Finals time is here. Then summer. I will be breathing a sigh of relief. Really, I just need my syntax final to be over! It's a beast.

and I kinda dislike blogging because I start out with one topic and end with a completely other one. Not that that's a bad thing...just the methodology of getting from point a to ...Q? via blogland is weird for me I guess!