on my mind

Ok, so I know that this is kinda lame, but I'm gonna say it because I don't care. I've decided that at this point in my life, a boyfriend would be nice. I'm super grateful for my friends and the times we have but I would love a boyfriend right about now. I'm ready for it. I'm sick of guys telling me I'm pretty, smart, intriguing and oh yeah...intimidating. What the hell? Why must they say this? I'm wondering if I'm really that bad?? I'm not looking for sympathy, just the beginnings of a relationship. Everyone says that once you stop looking, someone will come into your life. I say bull. There's this guy that I really like that I thought might be interested but we're good friends for now. Of course, that's all I can ask for, but what if? What if we were to go somewhere? That would be pretty cool. Some things (however silly they may be) are just better as a couple. For example: 1) I am being Pebbles from the Flinstones for halloween and have a bam-bam costume too. It would be so cool if I could get him to be that. and...he has a nice bod, he could rock the real life bam bam look without a shirt underneath ;) 2) I need a buddy to go with me to Dashboard when they come in Nov. How freakin cool would that be?? 3) having someone to be there for me in general...the hopeless romantic equal of myself, who I could tell everything to and have it not be a big deal. having someone to cuddle with, go on dates, have a ton of fun with, etc. having someone that cares [geniunely cares] about what I have to say. I know, so just ask him out a few times and see where things go right ? Easier said than done, my friends. What if he doesn't want to but is too nice to say no? Questions, questions. well, I'm on student government and one of my activities is a date dance that's coming up and it's sort of imperative that I have a date, so that just be my golden ticket. Hopefully I don't chicken out. I know I can do it, I have complete confidence, but I guess what I'm afraid of the most is his reaction. hmmmmm....alright, I feel really good right now!
Peace and loves
~Ash